Oh yes, happy belated April Fools' day. haha.

Will you get disheartened when some friends whom you thought you could confide in,dont actually give you a feeling of"they-will-be-there-for-you"? you see,i guess you find me irritating and then,when i asked you before,why did you say" why do you keep thinking that you're ka-jiaoing people?".

And for another friend,she's very nice. but i guess maybe coz i'm not close enough to her yet,like we dont really hang out and stuff,and i'm not directly a friend that she made in the first place,but through my bf,i'm the one who started approaching her first. Maybe that's the reason why i dont seem like a close friend to her.

i tried.

Okay,so maybe i'm just dependent.I feel better after talking and ranting about my problems,and often,these people give me advice. Then i understand more. So is it wrong then? i shouldnt go disturb people? yeah,as i said,you guys have your own life.Why would anyone want to get involved in mine?

This is so typical,coz humans are selfish. i guess i was just thinking for myself. Every time,just stuck in a dilemma,whether to approach anot. i dunno la.

Even now,when i'm bored,i dont even dare go find people to chat.Everyone's busy!i want to have a life!! i dont want to stone at home everyday,staring out at the sky,counting how many toes i have,scrubbing rust off metal,looking for lizard droppings,and talking to that ugly tweety of my sis etc.haha

Never knew holidays were this bad.Even my work seems dull. I'm lazy to drag my feet to tutor some kid,although it's good money $-$

Yes,and maybe it's because i dont have a goal;something to work on,something worth making sacrifices for.

school's reopening..year 2 already! yay :)